I have been struggling with depression for over 8 years what a difficult journey it has been! Depression can make you feel so overwhelmingly isolated and alone. I felt empty and weak inside. So often I would cry myself to sleep and had no idea where to turn. It made sense to me to push my family and friends away because this journey was just as difficult for them as it was for me. The pain was so real that it became physical and I thought that the only way to make it stop would be to end my life. I was admitted into a clinic last year where I received a lot of help but it was when I was released that I came a long to a Hillsong service with my brother.
I remember it clearly; it was a Touching Heaven Night and that night I felt like I had fallen into the arms of Jesus. I have been attending Church ever since and am loving it. It was on the website where I read about SHINE and I knew that this was something that I had to do. Depression can make you feel like a caged bird. Shine slowly started to open that cage for me and allowed me to fly.
After the 8 weeks of Shine, I am still on a journey but I feel so much more empowered than before. Every week in Shine we are taught a new truth about who we are and at first it was hard for me to repeat that I am valuable and unique and that I have a purpose. But now, I believe it!! I know that my identity is in Christ and that I am who He says I am. I am so excited for my future and believe that my best days are still ahead. By Amy Johnson.